Thank You

Dear J.J. Abrams and the entire Rise of Skywalker team:

I am a hardcore middle-aged geek (or nerd) in the Wil Wheaton sense of the word. I love my passions…well, passionately. I am passionate about writing, theater, film, and all types of performance. I have loved sci-fi and fantasy since I learned they existed. 

The original Star Trek was a Saturday night ritual as far back as I can remember, though I came of age with The Next Generation. When I grew up, I planned to marry Captain Kirk (or maybe Hawkeye Pierce). An idealistic, eternally optimistic eight-year-old who desperately wanted to be Luke Skywalker, I remember walking out of The Empire Strikes Back 100% certain that Darth Vader was NOT—could not be!—Luke’s father. It had to be a trick. They would explain it soon, I just knew.

Blessed with a fantastic librarian, I read YA fantasy before anyone knew it was a thing—Lloyd Alexander, Susan Cooper, Piers Anthony, Dianna Wynne Jones, and my shero, Tamora Pierce. David Palmer’s Emergence changed my life. Then on to Douglas Adams, Anne McCaffrey, Madeline L’Engle, Ursula LeGuin, Robin Hobb, Guy Gavriel Kay, Elizabeth Moon, Timothy Zahn, and the granddaddy of them all, J.R.R. Tolkien. I read his books once a year for decades. 

Basically, I was the awkward 1980s middle-school girl getting stink-eye from the male geeks in the sci-fi/fantasy section of the bookstore. (Looking back, I realize it may not have been stink-eye, but it sure felt like it.) And I have gloried in the rise of strong female characters in the years since then—on television, too! Captain Janeaway and Buffy kick ass.

I grew up to be a freelance novel editor, working in the young adult, sci-fi, and fantasy genres. I’m also the type of parent who, alongside my husband, draws parenting wisdom from the sages of those genres. Dune really helped us with toddlers—“the slow blade penetrates the shield” makes you feel WAY cooler than “just be patient; eventually he’ll pass out.”

I have never, ever felt more vulnerable in my geekiness than when I walked out of The Rise of Skywalker.

I cannot thank you enough for the artwork you all have made. It felt like I watched the Grand Unification Theory of every created world I knew (and doubtless ones I don’t!) in technicolor and surround sound. It gave me hope.

Can you truly feel what that means? You gave me hope. I’m the kid who has dreamed for years that some higher power will tap me on the shoulder and say, “You have a secret ability. You can save the world.” 

No one has ever said that to me. And the world has gone on spiraling merrily downward into the crapper.

What could I do? I haven’t always known. But right now I have an idea. 

I can remember I’m not alone. I can take a chance on what’s right, believing that enough other people see it, too--that someone will have my back. And I can stand with others when they take those chances. I can do that. We are not alone.

Thank you for the masterful craft of your movie, which I could rave about for hours. Thank you for closing the final trilogy and all its plotlines so beautifully. Thank you for your characters who showed us the unconquerable power of love, Leia’s true legacy. Thank you for all the references to all the original movies AND to all the other epic works of our times. I will probably spend years finding those references, but can I just say right now that I applaud you forever for slipping a Dune worm and an effing hobbit into your film?

Thank you for saying to a so-much-larger audience what Buffy said to all the potentials so many years ago: 

So here's the part where you make a choice. What if you could have that power, now? In every generation, one Slayer is born, because a bunch of men who died thousands of years ago made up that rule. They were powerful men. 

[points to Willow] This woman... is more powerful than all of them combined. So I say we change the rule. I say my power... should be our power. 

Tomorrow, Willow will use the essence of the Scythe to change our destiny. From now on, every girl in the world who might be a Slayer, will be a Slayer. Every girl who could have the power, will have the power, can stand up, will stand up. Slayers... every one of us. Make your choice. Are you ready to be strong?

I have hope now. I have hope that if I stand up, others will show up. I have the courage to show up when others stand up. I have hope that there are so many more of us than them.

I have never felt more vulnerable--or more powerful.

Thank you.